financially secure. I know that GOD is there with me taking me through the times , and providing me with all thats necessary , but as a human Iam doing my best .
My anger levels have increased because of the things that are happening in company , with some friends and Iam not sure when I will burst out and where I will burst out. I hope I can control and I know I can. At the same time there is also some insecurity feeling iam feeling in my life. There is this lack of achievement feeling thats actually troubling me . I feel I have not achieved anything and I have lots to go and achieve and I want to do lots.
Something is lacking in my life and I want to figure it out before it gets late. I need to give
more thought to it and take it more seriously. God take care of my Dads health , He has been working hard all the time for us , give him the strenght so that he can take it whats going on .Give him good health and make him more happy.
Iam here ready to anything that makes my mom and dad happy . I have lots of things in my mind , Get them here as early as possible , If not completely atleast during the summers. I am lacking from Financial side. Its like this "When it rains it pours". I know I can handle all this and GOD had provided timely help from all sides and waiting to get from some more sources. All I want now is to make my parents happy and get them here and make them stay with me and reduce their burden. Little time and all will be well. I havent told anything to my bro and Iam feeling sad that Iam not able to send him some extra money. I have missed out one and half months salary in my previous company and that is turning to be the crucial part now.
It was just few months back I had taken financial help from my friends , I am more free and frank and all that but when it comes to asking something for myself (especially financial Matters) Iam different . I always would only like to give , but I need to take also. But asking them again and I cant do it . Iam already controling muy expenditure, Just an year if I cut down all my expenses I can get some financial stability . Iam gonna do that. Its responsibilities that teaches and Iam no more a kid and I need to take care of that.
Iam more sensitive than what world percieves me . May be I have portrayed myself that way. Iam strong ,I have strenghth but doesnt mean I cant be sensitive. Iam just trying to be active and be myself , Iam telling myself that everything is gonna be alright and Iam sure GOD is there with me .